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Well after spending over 4 hours in the hospital today I found out that we lost the baby. I didn't know my blood type before and apparently I am part of only 10% of women who do not have an antigen in my red blood cells and are Rh-negative. I have been really depressed the past couple days cause I had a feeling I was losing the baby so today when they told me the news I was a little more mentally prepared. They gave me a very painful shot in the bum today that will make it so that this doesn't happen next time. I never even knew that your blood type could have such a negative effect. Eddie and I are both upset about it, but are going to try again in a couple months. Hopefully things will go well and we'll be able to get pregnant again soon!

7 weeks!

So today makes it 7 weeks! Yay! I had really good intentions of cleaning my now extremely messy house today... not happening. Luckily I managed to get the dishes done before the morning sickness kicked in. I hadn't really been feeling that sick the past few days so I thought that I was over that stage and was like that wasn't so bad. Wrong, I was wrong. So wrong. I feel so sick today. I will be laying down after this entry and not sure if I will get back up until tomorrow lol. I've been reading about my baby's development each week so I thought it was really cool to know that something the size of a Tic-Tac can manage to make me so sick! lol But my baby's face is starting to become more defined this week and the arms and legs are growing. Below is a picture of what it looks like right now... I think it looks like a manatee!

7 Weeks Pregnant

Anyways I can't stay up anymore I need a nap!

Pumpkin Patch day!

I was feeling so bored and uninspired this morning with my Halloween decorations and I was feeling pretty grumpy about it. Then Eddie looks at me and says well maybe its cause you don't have any pumpkins yet, wanna go to the pumpkin patch? DO I?! lol I love going to the pumpkin patch! I love picking out the perfect pumpkin in that awesome dark orange shade with the perfect stem! Makes my day! So I got all excited and ready and Emma comes over and the three of us head out to Celebration. I only got 5 good sized ones and 4 small ones. They said that more would be coming in next Friday so I will be there with bells on to get a few more! I love carving pumpkins too, I don't know why but I just do. I remember a couple years ago me and a couple friends carved 13 pumpkins in one day! I always tend to over do it a little lol. We got one that was mishaped and it actually looks like a skull so I thought that was pretty awesome. When I go on Friday I'm gonna try to get some green and gray ones, they only had a couple today and they had some gashes in them which means they'll rot before Halloween gets here. So that cheered me up for sure! Then we went to the Halloween store which made me a little sad cause I saw lots of things I wanted, like a broom that makes noises and moves around the floor on its own, that Eddie wouldn't let me get. booooo.... but I did end up getting some new patterns for my pumpkin carving enjoyment and a few little things to tie in the rest of my "witch ingredients". Then of course we had to look at baby costumes for next year! I can't wait to have a little one to dress up! ACK SO EXCITED!!! There were so many cute ones, I just couldn't stand it. Next year will be fun too to take the baby to the pumpkin patch. ... but I guess I'm getting a little ahead of myself there lol. All in all though, the only thing that would have made my pumpkin hunt better was if it wasn't like 90 outside today... sheesh the heat is out of control! I'm ready for that cool fall weather... but I probably won't get it til January lol. Also today... Eddie informed me he's afraid of me and my moodswings, I think he's exagerating, but whatever. I don't think my anger has been out of control but apparently I yelled at him sometime during the week lol I asked him if he deserved cause I don't remember doing it and he said probably. If you don't want the heat then stay out of the kitchen ya know?! lol anyways I'm gonna watch Eddie play his video game til I fall asleep... it works like a charm I'll probably be out in 15 minutes!

I love lazy days

Well me and Eddie had really good intentions of going out today and looking at houses... but it just didn't happen. I made a big breakfast (biscuits, gravy, sausage, eggs, hasbrowns) and we both got stuffed and that's when the lazy happened. We went to lay down and watch TV til our tummies settled and ended up falling back to sleep lol. I think Eddie is having sympathy pains cause he's tired all the time like me. In fact he took a 3 hour nap! I wasn't as lucky, I only slept for like 45 minutes but its more than I usually get. I have noticed that I'm not getting hungry or sick as often. I enjoy not feeling sick as much but I am not eating as much cause I'm not feeling hungry and then all of a sudden I'm starving! So I need to pay more attention and eat more during the day so I don't get that I need to eat right now or I'm going to die feeling. Anyway, I haven't put all my Halloween decorations yet... I was thinking that we would be moving soon so it wouldn't do any good cause I'd just have to take them down and put them up in the new place. But since we're already into October I figure that we will still be here for Halloween anyway and I might as well go ahead and put 'em up so I did a bit of decorating today. I made some foam bats and stuck them on the wall... I was impressed with myself. I need to make some more. We're having a witch house theme this year so I've made some bottles with "eyeballs" and rats in them. I'll take some pictures when I'm done and put them on Facebook. Well I guess I need to get off here and make dinner.

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I'm a hot mess...

So last night Eddie decided he wanted to move the bed around. We had it up against the wall longways and he wanted to pull it out from the wall and out flip it around. I did not want to move the bed cause I liked it the way it was... I could fall asleep watching TV on my side. So he kept on and on because he said he feels bed if he has to climb over me to get to the bathroom cause it wakes me up. He moved the bed. I hate it! I can no longer fall asleep watching TV instead I get to look at a blank wall. Needless to say I voiced my opinion on the matter numerous times. It made me very angry and I kept throwing my temper tantrum stating that "I hate it... I hate it" but I was tired and laid down to go to sleep then Eddie got mad at me and my complaining and said fine I'll put it back. It took him 20 minutes to move it the first time and I was tired so I told him to do it tomorrow and he got all huffy puffy. .... lol he's just going to have to get used to my mood swings. I have decided that I should probably stop watching all these baby shows... I sit here everyday watching them and then I cry. I cry. Why? I don't know. I just do and I can't stop. Hormones suck! When I was watching all those wedding shows I didn't cry... its all this baby hormone nonsense! Me and Eddie are still fighting over baby names. As much as I love the name Aeris is just sounds like too many S's then if we went with Aerith it sounds like you have a lisp lol. I think I've sold him on the name Logan though which is cool. I don't know about a middle name yet. We could still go with Danger lol Logan Danger is awesome! And how sweet would it be for him to be able to say "My middle is Danger"?! I'm just kidding lol but it would be cool. Anyways I'm gonna get off here do some laundry and cleaning... moving the bed made a mess in our room... ugh! lol

6 weeks!

So I just got home from the doctor and they said that I am 6 weeks already! yay! I was so frustrated after my visit to the health dept Friday so I was glad I didn't have to end up doing the blood test. So my due date is May 25th... and no Auntie Angie I'm not holding out a couple days to have it on your birthday lol. I am getting more and more nausea everyday ... which sucks... and more and more tired. I managed to take a short nap today which really helped otherwise I'd be passed out on the couch right now. I am finding that right after I eat lunch is a great time to lay down cause the school hasn't let out yet and the stupid dog across the street is pretty quiet around that time. I need to get used to taking naps... I'll put that on my to-do list. This past weekend wore me out! Eddie's cousin had her 1st birthday on Saturday so we went to Fun Spot (its like a Chuck E. Cheese) for her party. Then yesterday we went over to Grandma and Grandpa's house for BBQ ... in the rain lol. We were there a long time and I was so exhausted. I'm looking forward to my day of doing nothing and going nowhere tomorrow. Anyway Eddie is going to home in a few minutes and I made a pot of chili earlier for dinner... I'm starving! More updates later!

Frustration!

So I got up super early this morning, picked up Shannon, and went to the Health Dept. First off let me just say that I would rather spend the ENTIRE day in Walmart than go there... and that's serious. So anyway after dealing with the rude check in people I get sent upstairs where I have to fill out like 5 pages of stupid info before I could even pee in the cheap little plastic cup they gave me. Took forever! So then I go do my business and put my cup in the little cabinet in the wall and go back and wait to be called. That also took forever as they only had 1 person working back there. So finally I get called and she asks me why I thought I was pregnant and I looked at her and said because I have taken 2 pregnancy tests and they both came out positive. And she said oh well it came up negative here, did you buy an expenisve test? ::insert blank stare here:: I was like um well it was like $20 for 2 of them... I guess you could consider that a little expensive???? She's like ok see here we use really cheap tests and it takes a large amount of hormones to get a positive result so you're probably pregnant but our tests aren't picking it up, why don't you come back next week make sure its your first morning pee. .... .... .... Are you kidding me? Do you know how many times I had to go potty before I even left my house this morning?! Let alone the 45 minutes it took me to get here and 30 I had to wait just to go pee in your stupid cup?! So I asked if they could do a blood test cause I really didn't see me being able to "hold it" that long and she told me there was no such thing. No such thing. Are you kidding me, did I step into the Twilight Zone or something? So by this point I am completely annoyed at the waste of my time and the fact that I was dressed and out of my house that early that I just wanted to leave. So while she finishes filling out my paperwork her phone rings and I sit there as she has like a 10 minute conversation about what she wants to do with another co-worker for dinner... I don't know if I'm in the mood for Greek tonight plus you have to make reservations.... .... ... ... So all in all that was a big waste of my time. You would think that they would have more accurate tests cause they're really not saving any money if I'm gonna have to go back there who knows how many times until their test finally picks up the hormones that mine were able to because apparently I drink too much water and my pee is too diluted. HELLO I'm thirsty and I'm supposed to drink a lot of water! Anyway Emma is trying to make me an appoitnment at her office and I'll just pay for it. This is ridiculous! I can't get my medicaid approved until I get a test from the Health Dept or a doctor that says I am pregnant. Sheesh! What a completely frustrating day! So I am pretty much wiped out and am going to try to take a nap before I have to start making dinner. ::hmpf::